God hasn't forgotten me...
I had come to a point with God that I felt I needed to settle the question of why he didn't heal my mom before I could go further with him...not that I'd turn away but that my heart wouldn't be all his. I prayed to him and told him this and not long after he gave me the realization that Jesus didn't get his prayer answered completely when he was in the garden and that gave me a lot of peace. I thought I was pretty much okay but now in bible study last night, God used Beth Moore to speak directly to that situation....I mean, stuff I told my group five minutes earlier was being addressed! She was saying how you have to continue to believe that God is trustworthy b/c the devil wants nothing more than to make me feel like I can't trust God. I feel very loved. :)

My next issue is that I am still harboring anger towards Danny. Some of it, I think from when Mom was sick. But God will help me with this, too. Those who sow in tears will reap in joy :)