I want a husband and I want him now. I want to not be lonely and I want someone to love me. I want to cuddle and have someone want to talk to me. I want to know that I'm not the last single girl on earth and that I am loveable. I know I should be getting all this stuff from God. I just don't feel good right now. I should be getting ready for my trip and I haven't. I FEEL SO FAT. I've gained all this weight and I'm afraid no one will ever love me.