So, anyway...tomorrow I have to go back to work after my time off from Mom's death. I'm really, really nervous; I haven't worked for 2 1/2 weeks . At least the job I'm doing for this particular week is one I enjoy more than my usual job. But while I've been in my little home bubble I can usually cope but I don't know how I'll do with people consoling me and I'm afraid I will realize the actual emptiness of Mom being gone. I am hoping to lose some weight though; through all this stress I've gained weight and this last week I've just sat around and ate whatever. I would like to get a treadmill but I'm afraid I'll not use it like I don't use my recumbent bike I got a few years ago :). I might still get the treadmill but I'll have to put it on credit and pay it off. Oh, well.